“Experience is the name everyone gives to their mistakes.” – Oscar Wilde

It’s time for my “I don’t know why the hell I don’t regularly post to this blog” article. However, something really is different this year, this 2024. I’ve really had a chance to reflect and note that I am almost halfway through age 60 and early into my presumed third and final trimester of life.

While I’m in decent physical health with no surgeries or daily medication regimen to note, I’ve taken an inventory of my mental health and made a decision to seek some assistance. I shared my decision with my family because they should know that it’s alright to ask for help. I reached out to a professional Psychologist because I’m tired, so very tired of carrying around sixty years of “baggage”. I wouldn’t diagnose myself as depressed, however I certainly don’t wish to remain in the same mental state everyday for the next however many years.

The dust and cobwebs are getting kicked up inside the recesses of my mind. All the good, the bad and the ugly. There may be some family, friends and colleagues owed an amend or two, just as I am owed a few as well. It’s seems now is a good a time to take that trek into the back acreage of my mind since things have slowed down and I can give a true reflection of my past.

Pondering Retirement, I am most excited for what I see ahead and pray it is not a mirage. I look forward to retiring. Retiring from the everyday “Rat Race”, retiring from the codependency of putting others before myself. I need my mind, body and soul to be clear so I can set my sights on the New World ahead, so I may focus on those things truly important to me.

In retrospect, I could have handled somethings better, there are no harbored feelings of inadequacy or guilt as a parent, spouse or person, just feelings that it’s time to give myself some proper respect for all that I have accomplished to this point. Through all of the storms, droughts, hurricanes, tornadoes, earthquakes, heat and humidity, here I am.

I thank you for taking the time to read this and spend some time with me today.

All the best.